Life Till Now...

Well, life’s not fair and we all believe it. At some point or the other, both in our personal and professional lives, we’ve felt dejected and rebuked by the people or the situation around. It could be a bitter experience because of family, friends, colleagues, or the very ‘Me’ that’s form each one of us.

In my life, more often than not, it’s always the ‘Me’ that has caused more problems than the ‘You’ that has been around. I don’t own much of a success reputation, but always managed to stay balance with an equal loss and wins history. Having said that, I’m quite a driver when it comes to fulfilling my passion. Be it writing (which occurs suddenly and in an unknown fashion), fixing my Royal Enfield, or even as serious, (some may consider it juvenile) choosing my favorite cake.

My biggest success in life has been friends. I’ve been blessed with amazing friends and I somehow don’t follow a protocol to win folks. I’m mean in the sense that sometimes I’ve kept people far from me who would want to jump into the party and in some occasion have been selfish enough to put up a circus just to win over someone. Whatever may be the case, I’m glad with the bunch of friend I’ve and will always treasure each one of them coz each day you folks make me a better person.

Failures – and trust me I don’t like failing. Failing has taught me more than any mathematical formula or the pinnacle of victory can offer. I’ve failed and in some cases failed miserably in my pursuit of being successfully. At the end, and after each failure, I’ve strongly realized how important it is to fail and the adrenaline of learning from failures is a life-long experience you treasure than the standing on a podium on being successfully. Majority of my failures have sprouted from failed relationships (in most cases the ‘Me’ to be blamed) and my spiritual journey. Both of these have always locked horn when I’ve tried to make my ways through. You can’t escape either of these in life’s journey. On the outside, I may seem like a nice, sorted guy (I’ve documented proof on this one) but when in a relationship, I’m the demon you wouldn’t want in your life. I know when folks read this post, a lot of girls are going to shun me, but the truth be told, what you get is what you read. I do try to be good in a relationship, but there have been times where can be a total wreck. Having said that, I would love to be with someone and someday see myself as committed and achieve at least a close 90% success (because 100% is for mortals) in a relationship.

Another part of my struggle has been (and I believe will always be) is my spiritual self. I’m a roman catholic, who comes from a very strict and religious family, but the LORD has been training me (that’s what I feel from the heart) on how to be a better catholic. Although I believe in a lot of fundamental rules and protocols needs to be held intact in your journey of faith, but to be honest, I’ve questioned some of their pre-defined prayer booklets and prayer directions given by priests. I wouldn’t suggest that this is more of a rebellious call, but what I want to point out (and I strongly believe) is we cannot have a one-size fits all arrangement in faith. After all Moses found GOD in a burning tree, Zacchaeus when clinging on to a tree, Mary Magdalene found GOD when caught in adultery and I found HIM in music. I hope and pray (and urge you readers to pray too, in your own way) that each day we’ll get closer to HIM and experience him in our daily chores – be it watching TV, on the internet, or simply while having cake.

Well, now that I’ve spoken my mind out, I want to congratulate and thank all you folks who made it to this final paragraph. After all, reading is a much tedious task then writing.

P.S: Wanna be writer, graphic artist, Iron Maiden drummer – Cal Vin!